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thank you. really, i cannot tell you how thankful i am for your words of {encouragement} & {comfort}. i am always so humbled when i realize how much this little blogging community means to me. you are all such a blessing to my life. all i can say is thank you.

and just as an update, i wanted to let you know that i am finally feeling more like myself. the past few weeks, for me, have been such a struggle. i felt so empty, so purposeless. i would spend my week going to class, going to work, and coming home exhausted & worn-out, only to eat dinner & be left with piles of dirty dishes in the sink & homework left unfinished. i would look forward to the weekend, to a break, but it would past by so quickly, until i would wake-up on monday morning wondering if there was a break at all. i felt so frazzled, so empty, so purposeless. i would look forward to weekends spent with my mom and date nights with luke, but at the end of those times, i was left unfulfilled. finally, at what i felt like the end of my strength & my sanity, i broke down. to be quite honest, i had never felt so dark, so sad.
i realized that i had been living on repeat. school, work, dinner, homework, sleep. school, work, dinner, homework, sleep. repeat. repeat. repeat….
through the tears, the frustruation, the helplessness, i began to pray. i began to journal. i closed the laptop & went outside. i turned on a little frank sinatra & slowly made lunch. i picked up a book, of my own choosing, & began to read. i began knitting, using my hands to create something else. slowly, i began to feel lighter, the weight of life lifted off my shoulders. i thanked God for the little moments of silent in my day. i relished in the present, not the future relief to come.
naturally, i know that there is still sadness to come. these little changes do not resolve life’s hectic pace & fleeting time. but- i do now know that these moments will pass…. and there is something so much greater to look forward to.

thank you for reading.

i know i said i’d make an entry about homemade gifts for this morning, but i’m finding it difficult to get motivated & accomplish anything. i think i am going to extend my break from posting. i’ll be back soon, i promise.
thanks for always reading.

thank you all for your sweet comments on my last entry. we have been able to do quite a bit of cooking with our bounty of farmer’s market produce. using some carrots & kale, i made a delicious autumn soup, & luke used all of that beautiful cauliflower in one of our favorite autumn recipes- red lentil coconut curry.

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& as for the weekend, it is starting early!
my mom arrives tonight & will be here until sunday afternoon. we plan to go to an informational expo about small farming, visit some local stores in columbia, bake an apple bundt cake, catch a good movie or two at the theater, munch on an autumn salad with lots of pear, & most importantly- rest & enjoy eachother’s company.
i’ve missed her so much these last few months. i feel like our relationship has really changed & strengthened since i have gotten married. i am so thankful for her & really look forward to the time we will spend.
so, i am taking a break from the internet world to spend more time with my mom. i’ll be back on monday with some talk about christmas & the holiday season!
& as always- i will be writing over {here} on sunday with luke!