last night we walked to our favorite spot behind our home to find our secret wild blackberry bushes beaming with ripe fruit. just in time for a celebratory may day crumble!
happy may day, friends!
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thank you all for your sweet & encouraging words from yesterday’s post. it feel so good to know that we are all experiencing the same rhythms of life & seeking balance within it all. xo.
love,
natalie
i want to write in this space today & be completely authentic. about my life, about my job, about my health, about my work as an artist. & to be completely honest, to be authentic- i have to reveal the not so great parts of my life, the real junk.
since starting my full-time job, my life has felt different. i am beginning to enjoy my job, but the balance of living has been a challenge. i spend most of my days at work & the rest worrying about what i should prioritize when i’m not at work. should i prepare dinner right now?, weed the garden beds?, sweep the three inches of dog hair off the floor?, actually take a shower?, or spend time with my neglected husband? all of these questions lay heavily on my heart as i clock out at 5:30 p.m. & head home.
of course, i’ve heard it is a challenge for everyone who is brand new to the i just graduated from college & now entering the weird world of full time work club. that doesn’t make it any easier, though.
the last two weekends have felt especially hectic. two weekends ago, i drove to columbia to hang a show in the bakery where i used to work. it was an amazing learning experience & i am so thankful for the opportunity to share my story in a place that means so much to me. this past weekend, i woke up at 4 a.m. on saturday to participate in a funky little craft show in oklahoma. it was great & i just love the feeling of being with other artists. here’s just a glimpse…
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| my show at uprise bakery in columbia, missouri |
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| my booth at dustbowl in oklahoma |
as i was driving home from oklahoma in the dark & exhausted, i kept wondering about the direction of my life. i worried about my goals- where i should be, what i should be doing as an artist, when should we buy some land & start a farm.
then, as my thoughts started to go down hill as they so often do, i remembered… i do this for me. regardless of where i am, what i think i should do, i do this for me. i drive hours to share my photography & sell my work because i love it. i stay up late & spend weekends on the road because being an artist brings me joy. i write to you instead of making dinner because being a part of this community is valuable. i am thankful for my life. although it doesn’t make sense in the now, i take time out of my life to be creative because that is who i am. & it is all so good.
p.s. if you are wondering, luke & i have learned to schedule very important date nights & our sundays are sacred. we are learning as all young married couples do.
love,
natalie
i am learning more & more about myself.
i worry too much about what others think of me.
i look great in bright colors.
i feel better both inside & out when i exercise. even if that means a short evening walk.
my smile is beautiful.
i adore film over digital.
i usually wait until the last minute.
i miss my friends.
i don’t like desks. i work best at the kitchen table.
gardening & chickens bring me peace.
i am that girl who cries.
i need more red shoes.
i wish i could meet all of you for coffee & scones.
baking makes me happy.
but i won’t follow the directions exactly.
tell me more about what you’re learning. i love being on the journey together.
love,
natalie