this past week was hard. to be totally honest, i haven’t felt such lows since moving here. the house was (& still is) a disaster & i couldn’t come up with one ounce of motivation to do much of anything. it is a tough reminder when you realize you are only human & really need a community to live life fully. once you move away from that community, life downright sucks sometimes. also, having a bright red kitchen & dining room doesn’t help much either. so i painted with my mom & brother. & it was just what i needed to bring me back. that green really speaks to me.
luke & i also made a trip to his family’s home for the goodness of comfort from such a hard week. we made a date of it, too, & had breakfast at brick house kitchen & a late morning of purchasing fresh foods from the farmer’s market. fennel & bowls of heirloom tomatoes- so good.
we had such good conversations with luke’s mom. just the right amount of clarity to keep you going even in the junk of life.
we headed back & spent sunday at our home-in-the-making. the garden is beginning to feel just right.
basil soaking up every bit of the summer heat
& our first sighting of tomatoes.
of course, things still aren’t peachy & every single day i am reminded of the process of living, but these little meltdowns are reminding me that i am growing & learning. just knowing that is reassuring.
love,
natalie
natalie